Having been blogging much have I, oh well, Lina has been blogging about my retarded face..went to work for the past few days after school,very tiring.I haven't been feeling my bast either.There were times where i felt that my life stinks,why am i so stupid ,etc.But, thinking of all this made me realise that it doesn't help lightening my day...so why bother thinking, i will just lead my life,focusing on my goalthat would be so much more fulfilling compared to thinking about negative thoughts...Down with negative thoughts..

Acting class has opened up my senses,I have learnt the wrong thing by sensing emotions(which is suppose to be to early to learn...should be focused on physical stuff)but i couldn't help myself...it just came...maybe it's just me..

I wasn't in this picture....but the yellow shirted girl is my sister,the
blue shirted girl is my cousin and the orange shirted girl is my cousin
whom i'm dedicating this blog entry to



Rest assure you are not forgotten,
Don't you dare be forgotten.
I love you dear
my cousin dear
May we stay strong
For very long



Chatted with Monica, my cousin who is in Australia now,I really miss her,we had so many things we kept from each but i glad we talked it out.we talked about our past...and we laughed our hearts out.We talked about her little crush on a lifeguard at a particular swimming pool,he was a not so close friend of mine but yeah...and she had another crush on this angmohish lifeguard who is my friend and im still keeping in contact with him,friendly guy.There was also this incident where she had to "cling on to her life" on my bicycle,(she was on roller blades) and we later swapped...it was really funny..

Today...i was kind of late for school....i actually curled my hair for school...but it got quite screwed up...so i went straight haired..i took a cab to the train station....messaged Melissa too wait for me as i would be 6 mins late(but it turned out that she didn't bring her handphone..so yar...they didn't wait for me...)so i walked to school....and at one point....i walked behind this STUPID car...and the bloody driver droved backwards without alerting me.....i almost got hitted...if i didn't notice hm going backwards....stupid driver....and then i went to the next traffic light...which was 2 mins away from that stupid driver.....saw the gang(who ditched me..haha)crossing the road....i was behing them...and this time....a taxi almost hit me....argh!!!!!yeah.....so enjoyed the boring lessons....and after school....Me,Farah,Xavier and Lina went to Vivocity....(Farah didn't want to go for her appointment in NUH....naughty girl)walked around to get stuffs....went to LJs to eat....then This girl cleared our trays while we were still eating.....we were quite irritated with her la...then we waited to see if she would clear Xavier's tray(we wanted to see the way Xavier would react...cause his the hot tempered kind of guy)but it never happened....so...Xavier went off to meet his date..I went to get Donuts for Morier and Amrit...my secondary school friends....(miss them)tthen we headed home....i admit i almost fell asleep in the train...so sleepy...my goodness...oh well


Deep down,im actually not as silly as i seem in this picture

Kae and Farah (at Swensens)

After our assignment by Mr Lee Yew Moon,
we walked from SRT to Great World City.
We had lunch/dinner there,
while we were eating,Kae,B,JJ and me
were seated at a table infront of the other table
which consisted of,
E-van,Victoria,Rashmi,Lina,Farah and Rumana.
Kae,B,JJ and I started making each other laugh but talking about our
experiences in class....it was so funny,to funny for me to remember what we were
talking about except for the"Pelvic Trust"thing,
We kept laughing like crazy people who just escaped from the mental hospital.

Anyway,we walked around Great World City,doing stupid stuffs which was definately fun.
We did "roll up the spine","Soft-focus"(which we did and almost got hit by a car),Breathing exercises,etc.And I and B took this picture on purpose,just to disturb Joakim la(he has something against girls being close to girls.....)

Kae,Kae,Kae....she loves me and JJ because.....we helped her get this guys number....she was so funny...(should have seen the smile on her face...can't wipe it off)

We went to play bowling for awhile,it was fun,we gave each other weird names like,Pelvic,Hot and Sexy,Sex appeal,Fat ass,Poison Ivy and theatre*something*...can't remember how to spell Lina's...Lina claims im good in bowling...but trust me,im not.

Anyway,thanks guys,for making my day,had lot's of fun today.It's the first time I've had so much fun in 1 yr 8 months....yeah...i counted my miserable days.

Well,another day at work,another day of misery
all you had to do was to make me all fury.
I hated my 17th and 18th birthday,
is there more i should say?
What should my piorities be
I still give my respects to thee.

It's so frustrating when you have to choose between this option and that,all i needed was a simple little smile and a bonus hug,that would all make my day.You made me cry,i didn't show,cause all you would say was just too hurting.i had a minor asthma,you may not have realised,but then again why should you?The fuck face was there...speaking in malay,and remember the rules?I know you are stressed,but i ain't any miserable robot,working with no life.It's sad when you are gifted to read people's face,you know you are one of my top piorities and you will stay there.(And it's not going to change even if the world was to end)And im not trying to imply that im the victim here,just a victim of confusion

Lies,lies and more lies,this earth is filled with cruel lies.If only this action and word of lie didn't exist.It may be more hurtful for some,but at least we would be sure of our next path.

I feel so bad,hurting my mum by saying I hate my life,i don't really hate it,i'm just in a very confused stage where I can't step forward.


I'm in need of a big hug or a caring thought,I seriously need it,badly.

I have been blogging for a very long time now...oh well...

Anyway...now im in NAFA,my friends are great,they never fail to cheer me up...im always looking forward for school..

I've been feeling down for the past few days...felt like i had no life.I tried so hard to make myself happy,but it never last long as my mind keeps thinking of the things that i tried to push away.It may sometimes be a good thing but,many a times,it's just plain horrible.

Everytime,i think of your image,my heart just shatters into pieces,the problem with me is,i keep holding back,i don't like to share my troubles,it reminds me of what im troubled with and i make others with my pain.I hate that bitch so much,i don't care about what she feels,she's a bitch,even her frenz backstab her,i think im already good enough to be better then her frenz as i called her a bitch in her face,and wat does she say? >"only bitches call others bitch"but here is the thing,i did not say that i wasn't a bitch,as a matter of fact...im a btch,but she is the bitch of all bitches...i call her queen bitch....ok....enough of this fuc*er.

Let's go back to my wonderful frenz,

Farah-She is my right hand woman,at first i thought she was an ah lian,but,she is like...ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS NOW!!!

Melissa-No doubt she is childish,but she is a special someone whom i find count on to make (me laugh) my day.

Lina-She may be small in size...but....(she is actually a lion inside...)haha

Kae-She reminds me of my best friend Kay,always so jumpy and full of (sex-appeal)sorry honey...i had to say it after that incident at...you know where..hehe

Xavier-His a monkey i tell you...but he wasn't the person inside i expected him to be,definately a good fren

'B'-She ain't no Gothic bitch....she is one very daring girl i have to say,(she's into bondage...whips..haha..which is cool in some ways la..honey..if you happen to read this...don't attempt to kiss me again...you almost gave me a heart attack the last time)

Kunjung-She is one sexy wife...american husband...don't mess with her....(i wish you a fast recovery for your operation this friday darling)

Oh Darryl-I can only think of circle circle dot dot...haha...i thought he was emo....but he is the best fren anyone can ever have...he is full of surprises

There are of course more frenz to talk about like,Krupa(crazy Australian girl),Victoria(modern aunty),Joakim(Korindian boy),E-van(Tiny loud girl),Hidayah(Laughing monster),Fortu(Green-eyed monster),JJ(the jet plane),Rumanna(hilarious girl),rashmi(indian girl from thailand) and last but not least Celine(Noisy girl..aiyo)