Times have changed...i really miss having friends who are nice and not back-stabbers..ok..we all have alittle back-stabbing secret going on...but not to the extend of hurting other people...i may not be the one involved(maybe not yet)but still...i feel for that person alright.

There are afew people i don't think i will forget..(not in a good way of course)But..i realised that when there is evil...the angels are always around..no matter wat the devil has done...the angels will be there to comfort..

That is why life is so full of love which over- rules hate...yeah...You know who you
are my angels..yup..my groupies

Have you ever experienced deja vu?I know i have,not once,but,afew times.These experiences has been happening since i was a child,it was weird at first,but some how,i thought it was fun,one of my aunties experienced it too,I still do not understand why some of us experience these but..i do wish that it could help me in times to come.

Recently...i have been experiencing short tempers...i get so angry so easily..and some people just have to make it worst..

Just now...i settled my troubled self in nature...it was very relaxing despite the extreme heat...i took out the MP3....and remembered i brought 2 books out in the morning with me...i didn't know why i brought it out in the first place..it was about A life worth living ....i took it out and read it...it really cooled me off...i had thought of smoking and drinking...i was on the verge of starting....was likely because of some bad influence..but lets not start blaming others or start naming them..wat went through my mind was...since these people smoke and drink because of stress....maybe i should try it....but then again...the back of my head...though the voice is faint..it was a willing and understanding voice that made me want to listen...."Why smoke and drink..do u think that it could really take away your stress?why do these to your body...it's also the temple of god"

Smoking and drinking came to my mind twice within 24 hours..but every time i wanted to continue...that voice keeps coming up..I dun have anyone to turn to and tell my inside problems...it always turn out angering that person i talk to...that is why i have always kept things to myself...i tried to open up...telling again...but after that day and today...i think i will go back to where i belong...i thank the voice

Jesus,i am a very confused soul,please help and guide me into the right path..all to thee my precious saviour...i surrender all...my mind is cleared...im only listening to you..i give you my heart but not my heart because you are in my heart...my ear hears evil...my heart hears you...show me the way

And dear lord jesus...please help a friend of mine who do not understand you...bless her with your precious blood....give her the strength to believe in you..i know you can't make her have faith in you but i know she will have faith in you...please guide her and heal her...i will give anything to make her well again

Yup....another day..hehe...i have taught myself a lesson today...the reason why someone hates you is because they are just jealous of you...

Anyway...there are many fishes swimming around lately....yup...im just a diver..i have been swimming with afew sharks...yup...i still am....

Life isn't like before....used to be stuck with so many things to consider...oh well..those has been long gone...now....i do thing my way..im not gonna listen to others...just my heart..

I used to be so shy....but being borned in the year of the dragon...i finally realised...that nobody can mess with this dragon without getting burned in the ass real bad...nope...im not revengeful...but...that is the only way to get your feet off my tail

Yeah...i may still be in love..but..no more getting hurt...i know where i stand...things i do...may not be recognised..but..it doesn't matter anymore..

Many things have happened in my life..but no matter how bad it is...i know there are many out there whose life is much worse than what i had experienced..Many things i do not understand...many things i do understand..but whatever it is...i will wait..one day...we will get out of these misery...everyone has a day that all our misery would be gone..

However...life wouldn't be the same will it?I shall keep my fingers crossed..I dun wanna cry anymore...no...i dun want to....im sick of crying...many things you have said have hurted me bad....how many times do you have to hurt our family?I will fight for my rights..somehow..I know i will