I keep thinking and lying to myself...yeah it's ok...i will be fine..i can't believe im lying to myself all this time!!It's like a roller coaster(if that is how you spell it) that never ends...

I will just scream in silent...scream to my hearts content,i keep telling myself...ok...i can do it...but there is a part of me holding me back...I hide most of my feelings in me because...i know if i let it out...it will not turn nice nor will it turn out the way i wanted it too.....It never did....ever!

Have you ever felt your heart so heavy?
Or your mind always wandering off?
Ever always cried in silent till there was no more tears but still felt upset?
Ever had so many people telling you what to do that was against your will?
Ever lived to see yourself die with heartaches?

Oh well...now...it's just another case of forgetting things that i don't want to remember..

ARGH!!